Smokers

To all smokers. Just to let you know the smoking bands that are in place and new ones we come up with are your fault. You really brought it upon yourself. By now you think I'm a dumb non-smoker. Only one of those are correct and I'll let you judge. Just keep in mind you are being punished by the masses not the individual so more than half of you are guilty on these offences.

You felt the need to smoke in closed doors resulting in bad air for everyone. Shocking I know smoking causes cancer and other defects in the body. It's not a revelation do some research. So, you were kicked outside because it's an open aired place. Well you couldn't even take a few more steps past the door way could you? That is a hypothetical question no need to answer it. No, you couldn't. As soon as a person walks out of any door they have to manoeuvre around all 85,564 smokers. The next thing we had to is put a area around a building that you couldn't smoke in. Example is you cannot smoke within 50 feet of the building.

So next time you light up remember you are your own self demise. Stop blammoing US the non-smoker for your problems. If you would be kind and generous to others then all these bands and laws wouldn't be in effect.

How could I have missed this!?

Almost unnoticed....Almost....

Doubt thou, the Starres are fire,

Doubt, that the Sunne doth moue:

Doubt Truth to be a Lier,

But neuer Doubt, I loue.

• Stars seem to burn like fire because they twinkle and flicker. We now know stars are not made of fire, but still burn!
• Yes, the planets rotate around the sun, but since the universe is expanding the sun is moving away from something. In his time they didn't think the sun moved. We will be BLUNT and ASSUME here (about referencing the move). 
• The doubt we find is foreshadowing to us later rejection and constant doubt.
  

BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT.BUT....

Let us not forget the last two line which hold the most important meaning of all

• You may doubt these two certainties; You may doubt everything; But never doubt my love.

Like I said at the beginning ALMOST over looked. 

*As always if I'm wrong please, please,please let me know.

American culture

America is full of scare tactics. Stealing copper is a new trend to help with hard times, and a lot of people are doing it. That last sentence sounds like I condone it, but truth is I don't. If you have hard times get another job. If you still don't have enough money do with out something. 

The scare tactics that are being smeared all over the T.V.. You see a handsome clean cut firefighter who died putting his life on the line. Then you have an attractive female cop who died in the line of duty. Finally you have a scrubby white guy sitting on a porch who died stealing copper and they ask "Is that how you want to be remembered?" Really, come on!? A thief is a thief they are not going to be watching T.V. at home. Hint it's probably pawned. 

Mail order bride=USA

Has America really become so lazy that we need to order wives off of the internet from Russia? I have always heard of rumors about it, but never knew anyone who actually went through with it. (Since this blog is continuing then you know what follows next.) Until now, I thought it was a big joke until I found out that my cousin boyfriend  dad actually did and married her. They are divorced now, but he actually did it! He was married to a mail order bride. Who does that? Are we so busy that we cannot even find a mate, and I mean that in a significant other way, for life? She had a child from a previous marriage, married the guy who ordered her (I know degrading), and then ended up marrying other guy an divorcing him.

She now lives alone with her child in a apartment with no friends. So, is ordering a wife for selfish reasons a good things? If you need an answer it's NO! Nothing good came from it. He wanted a wife so bad and now he doesn't have anyone. She wanted to move to America and now she's alone. When you have selfish intents then things work against you. KARMA....?

Embarrassing moment....

Today I was walking out of a store (hint they have a huge parade named after them) and the most horrible thing happened. After I returned a shirt because it was too large for me I was walking out of the main doors and for some reason my brain didn't send the message to my hands to push the door open. Needless to say my head turned to the left as the right side of my face slammed into the glass door. Then my arms caught up with my body but it was too late. A group of cougars, older woman, were stand right there. They seen and heard everything, but did they ask if I was alright NO!!!! So I tried to hurry up and leave the store. Those ladies followed me out of the store and continued to laugh at me. I couldn't get away from them fast enough. Next time I'm walking more slowly and going to put my arms out a few steps in advance.

DILEMMA!!!!

I know on my pervious blog I said I was boycotting technology, and only going to spend about an hour each day on the computer. Today's events have place that hold out on hold. I received a package today from friend A (previous post will help). The parcel was left on my back door step, which is unusual for the postman to do that. That's why I'm getting it at 9:30pm. 

I have not looked in it and I'm not sure if I want to. I do wonder what is in it.  I feel something but I cannot place my finger on it. It could hold a Dear John letter  and that is something that I don't want read. However, its con-tense could be good. I really must weigh my options. Is holding onto false hope better than knowing?

Gas Prices....

High gas prices are a good thing. <--WAIT WHAT? Yes, high gas prices may suck, but we as Americans are so dependent on foreign oil that we don't know how to handle ourselves. If you look at Europe their gas prices are triple ours in some respects. With high gas prices on the rise and no sight in coming back down so STOP holding your breaths. Everything positive will come of it. We will start producing more fuel efficient cars. MAYBE, and that is a big maybe we can further our rail system and connect coast to coast more frequently. This will just ensure our grand children will have a better place to live. We need to stop living in the moment, and live for the future. Yes, your big SUV that fits 15 people and has 94,000 square feet is nice. The question is do you need all that room? If you have a huge family then yes you do, but if it is a nuclear family then no you do not! I have a SUV, but it is a smaller one and gets the job done. Point A to B. 

If you need prof that we can adapt and over come this crisis just look back to the 1907's with that gas scare. We produced different types of energy sources, and we didn't die. So, just like then we adapted and over came. This too we will adapt and over come. When hasn't the United States been faced with adversity?

What we should be working on is fixing our dollar and how the Euro is killing us. If this keeps up the only train we will build is one to a third world country (ourselves).

Interview!?!?

Today I had a interview for emerging concepts supervisor. Fancy title but all it really means is I will be healed more accountable for my section. I have only worked there for three or so months. Take this as a learning lesson that everyone can be what ever they want with hard work. 

If I get the position is whole different story. So, that is another blog post at the end of this week. 

Accounting Teacher

I was scolded today because I asked the teacher to move to the side so I could copy the notes before getting out of class. Dialect has been reduced for time purposes. 

ME: "Can you please move to the side so I can copy the notes really quick."

TEACHER: "Next time move so you can see."

Not saying that it is not a valid request for me to move, but the tone means everything. I'm having a hard enough time as it is. If it is her TIME then so be it, but leave it on the other side of the door. 

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

I'm Sorry

This blog goes to those of you that actually believed in me. I have been doing a lot of thinking today and as it stands I don't think I'll be returning to school next quarter. I don't feel like I'm cut out for college. I say all the time "If it's easy then it's not worth fighting for." This is way past fighting for. I cannot seem to grasp what is going on around me.  Today I took a Math quiz and I'm sure I failed it. I felt like the knowledge I should have known was blocked out for reasons unknown. 

Since I'm not cut out for school I think I might work in factory. There are not many around here, but I'm sure a warehouse, factory, or distribution center should hire me. I'll keep you posted on any irrational decisions I make.

Update on the Math quiz 11.5/15. Class average 9.62/15. Inexcusable for both!

EXTRA....EXTRA....

I seem to have fallen off the English train. My grammar has become horrible, my vocabulary has become horrible, and my sentences are crap! I need someone educated to converse with me so I can expand my knowledge. I am starting to feel like a Neanderthal. A knuckle dragger almost. If interested submit a comment with a resume.

(This might be me in a few years sad face inserted here)

Contacting me

So I have been missing phone calls and getting crap because of it. E-mailing me is still the best option because my horrible cell phone drops serves all the time. However, if you still want to call me the best time is around 6:15AM. Yes, I mean 6:15 in the morning. I normally wake up at 6 but use that time to get ready until 6:15. I am available before then but you run the risk of missing me. 

.... .... .... ....

Someone once told me they "eat to live," and then they told me "you live to eat" (Talking about me).  Not fully understanding what they meant until recently. I have almost stopped eating to the point where I forget and it doesn't bother me. I have become weak and cannot stand for long periods of time because my legs feel like they will give out. I try to eat but my stomach hurts and is in knots. I tried to eat oatmeal the other morning and I couldn't keep anything down past a spoon full. However, I am able to get fluids down but the only thing that accomplishes is peeing all day long. I can force some solids down but they usually make me sick. I try to work out but I have nothing in my body to fuel me. I have been reduced to laying in bed listening to music. What has happened to me? I don't understand....

Update on China

In a pure command socialism economic system all goods and wealth are suppose to be distributed equally among everyone from the president to the peasant. Pure command socialism can never happen because there will always be a few individuals who are not looking out for the greater good of the country but the greater good for themselves. Mr. Chen Liangyu, 61 years old, is the latest person to get caught, and sentenced to 18 years in jail.

            In September of 2006 Mr. Liangyu was ousted from his position as Shanghai Communist party secretary. He has been found guilty for accepting bribes, abusing his power and neglecting his duties while serving as Shanghai party secretary. This has been the highest level of purge since the mid-1990's. His lawyers have not commented if they are going to appeal the verdict. The sentence also carries a 300,000 yuan or about 43,000 U.S. dollars. The initial allegations were from misuse of a city's $1.2 billion pension fund. The money was used to build skyscrapers, sports facilities and other projects to make the city look more modern. More than 20 different sentences have been handed down, but due to the high ranking status of Mr. Liangyu he has gotten most of the attention.

            This was a good decision by China to help end, or subside the corruption that has been going on by its high ranking officials for so long. President Hu is making huge strides to try and make the economy as fair and free of corruption as possible. I'm sure other stings in the future will oust more corrupt officials.

(This is suppose to be a picture of China with its skyscrapers I thought it would be fitting)

Missing

He quietly waits for your call 

He misses you....

He pretends you are not gone

He misses you....

He holds onto your  simile

He misses you....

He wants to feel your warmth

He misses you....

He did not want you to leave

He misses you....

He wonders if you will come back

He misses you....

EYE UPDATE

Here is an update on my eye color problem. I guess they were just going through a phase. However, my eye color did change to a deeper green if you can imagine. I wonder if a chemical imbalance occurred. All I know is they look more green and I love it. I hope they don't change anymore.

I might have to research some folklore to see if some tall tale is out there about changing eye color. Also to back the tall tales maybe some real research should accompany it. Again keep you posted on anything that happens.

Birthday

Few know this, but my birthday is coming up. I hate my birthday. Nothing good ever comes of it. I think Karma waits a whole year then gets me all at once around my birthday. I would list all my past experiences, but I don't have the time and I want to keep this as short as possible. I'll fast forward to what has happened so far.

My birthday is roughly two weeks away (not knowing what the date is). Already it is sizing up to be a crappy one. Recently I have lost two friends A and B. Calling friend A a friend is an understatement, but still not talking to them. I know it will benefit them in the long run by not talking to me. The other however, friend B, I don't even know what happened their. I don't care about losing them, B, so who cares.

Since I still have sometime before the big day comes I cannot wait to see what else comes at me. All I know is I want to remain as small and quite as I possibly can so maybe Karma overlooks me. Not likely, but maybe!

Pencil

This is kind of old, but I think of it often. I had a red Bic pencil for close to two years that I only did Math homework with. The other day it stopped working. I know most people say just get a new one. However, I believe in one pencil one subject. Use the same pen or pencil for that specific class, and only class. If you do that then you have all the correct answer, and all the solutions with that pencil. I know its more psychological than anything, but it seems to work.
I have to get use to this new Bic pencil. Not the most tragic thing ever, but it's like losing something you knew was a constant. Among other things....

*The red one was mine.

Boycott

Starting this morning I'm trying something new. I'm not going to have my cell phone readily available and only check my email once a day. Since I will only be checking my e-mail once I will only be on my computer one time through out the day. You might see my screen name online, but I will not be near my computer. I wont carry my phone, but it will be in my Jeep as a just-in-case measure.

Both of these things are going to limit communication with me. Sorry for any inconvenience.

Things being accomplished during my limited sessions:

1. e-mail

2. responding to e-mails

3. blogging (obviously)

4. miscellanies things

My eyes....

OK some of you will not believe me, but my eye color is changing again. I have no idea why that is or what is causing it. My current eye color is green, or that is what I have been told. NOW!, it seems they are turning more blue than anything. I guess if you look close you can tell because one eye is a different shade than the other one. Someone else actually told me that they were two different colors because I am as a whole worried about them changing from green to blue. Maybe it is a change in the season. The lighting is different. I don't know. I will keep updating when they do something weird again.

China, China, China....

Oh how the world loves to bash on China for everything that they do right or wrong. I'm going to try and make this one post but two different topics about China.

First, here is a little secret that a lot of Americans do not know about China. They bankroll the United States. China has close to a trillion, yes a trillion, dollars invested in our stock market and some various bonds. When the bridge in Minnesota collapsed and the government wanted to rebuild it guess who they had to ask first, China. When we wanted to rebuild after hurricane Katerina hit the Gulf Coast. Again guess who we had to ask if it was OK, China. The scary thing about China, negative time, is they want the U.S. to go through a mini recession because all their money is becoming weightless. The recession would cut back spending and I'm not going to bore you with the details, but it would help us in the long run. We are paying credit with more credit. See a problem yet? If China wanted to pull their money out and invest in the European Union we would be sunk. A third world country over night.

Second, All the negative publicity China is getting for the treatment of Tibet is unfair to them. Have you heard of place like Panama Canal or Guantanamo Bay? Both taken over by the U.S.. We did turn over rights to the canal but first squeezing all the money out we could. It almost seems like people across the world have their blinders on when it comes to the U.S., and it's not fair to other nations. If people really care be fair. Don't bash one country for something and then let others get away with it.

If I am wrong about anything in this post please send me a comment and let me know. I will revise. If not don't have blind justice.

P.D.A.

I have been wanting to post this for awhile, but I just needed something to send me over the edge. Public display of affection has NO gray area. None! It is either nice and normal or nasty and distasteful. This couple who is not older than nineteen sits in the lobby and does everything but hump on the tables. They lay with each other on the couches provided by the college. Yes, at home a couch is used to take naps on, but at college they are used for students to sit there and read or watch T.V.. If they are not in front of the television they are sitting at table on the same chair wrapping each other up. I think to myself "What are you doing. That's nasty stop!" They giggle, yes giggle, and touch all over in front of people.

Today, this morning I was caught giving them a dirty look. After that they seemed to calm down, but they knew I knew it was nasty. It's like popping a zit at the dinner table. Fine when done in private, but horrible when done in front of people.

the picture I have provided is not of the actual people, but of what they look like on a daily bases from when I see them.

Past memory

I don't know why I remember this.

A few years ago we all went down to grandma's for Sunday lunch. My cousin who is 330 pounds of raw hillbilly, pulled out guns and wanted to shoot them "down over the hill." So my cousin, my other cousins boyfriend, and I went with him. He had three or four different types of guns and only a handful of ammo. We were out there for a few hours and finally ran out of ammo. I'm not a big gun person so I was kind of glad. Anyway a HUGE bee landed on the ground beside us. To give you an idea of how big it was I would have to say about the size of an average thumb.

My cousin wanted to shoot it with a gun. I'm not even joking. The bullets were probably half the size of the bee and he really wanted to shoot it. Knowing this was not only a bad idea, but a dumb one as well I hurried and stepped on it. My cousin actually got mad because I wasted a good target. Why, why, why, why would a freaking bee on the ground at OUR FEET be a good target? 

This is what was probably going through his mind at the time. I have a gun and there is something I can hunt. I don't know what else he was thinking. I'm just glad I got the kill before he did because the end result would have been some sort of damage because there are rocks in the ground and could have came up to an eye or something.

*Picture is not actually family but I found it funny "Redneck Mentor"

Seeking death sentence!

The title may seem a little harsh, but I think is well deserved. Tammy Dailey and Jim McCabe need to be euthanized for their cruel treatment towards animals. If they want to act like a savage beast then fine, but they should be treated as such! The other morning I was watching the news and Tammy and Jim were in trouble for beating animals.

This is why they are getting a special post from me. They were beating farm animals INCLUDING A DONKEY! Who in the FUCK beats farm animals? You would have to go out of your way to beat a cow, donkey, or chicken. A dog or cat is readily available for a quick kick. I'm not saying I condone that treatment at all, but they are in the house and right there. A farm animal you have to walk your ass outside, punch them or kick, then walk back in. What kind of gratification do you get from that.

Update they have been charged. The picture in this post is actually them. If you notice closely you will see how white trash they are. People who beat children, animals, or adults that cannot defend themselves are weak in my mined. Remember a strong person just doesn't stand up for themselves but others as well.

Ghetto Girl

I had a good seat in my Accounting class, had being past tense, until today. I try to position myself in every class in the center of the room and towards to the front. Sound kind of nerdy but you can see the board better and wont concern yourself with others. I found the third best seat, the first two are taken by old ladies, and I was happy with my placement. The girl who sits next to me I do not want to say is ghetto, but lacks communication skills. I had to listen to "ain't that 'bout a bitch, I gots this shit now, wait what in the hell just happened." My favorite is when she was asking a question to the teacher and found out where she made her mistake and said very loudly "Oh man, see that's where I fucked up at." I just thought wow who says that to a teacher? She does I guess. Just before class we were talking about vocabulary and how to use certain words. I do not believe any of her sayings or choice phrases would have been classified under formal or informal, but rather street slang that needed to stay there.
Now, on Monday I will have to get to class early and get the new best third seat. Am I over reacting or pulling myself away from a negative person in class? I say relocating so I can get the most out of what I am paying to study.

Bums!!!!

I always thought that the area I worked at is a nice place. That all ended when I seen a bum asking for food. If you do not know me then this post might upset you. I hate bums. I really, really, really hate them. I think they are worthless people who are lazy and need to be put to down like a mangy dog. They do nothing but pester people who actually work for their money. When I am approached by a bum I will offer them nothing but advice "get a job." That might sound mean, BUT my Mrs. Giver of Live worked up to three jobs at once to provide for her and I. If she can work three why can't they work one? I'll answer that for you. They are lazy!!!! They want something for nothing. Give them food and they might not go hungry one night. Give them shelter they will stay warm for a bit. Give them a pen and application the possibilities are limitless. I'm sure McDonald's is not very picky in who they hire. Their background checks are next to non-existent. So please take heed to this and do not give anything to a bum except a pen and application. Maybe we might be able to clean up the streets.

I am open to debate on this, but I warn you come prepared.

Stingy....?

I was in the kitchen the other morning, and Mrs. Giver of Life was packing her lunch. She was searching all over the kitchen and finally I asked if I could help her find something. She looked at me and asked if I ate all the cookies. I laughed and said no, I laughed because she looked distraught about it. So I went to the den, which is right beside the kitchen, and asked Mr. Step if he knew where they were. He said no they were all gone. Mrs. Giver heard this and poked her head in and asked where they went. Once he realized that they were for her and not me he pulled a bag of them out of his lunch sack. 

This has me wondering why a grown man would be stingy with food when it comes to me. Telling me it is gone, or sometimes even eating it so there will not be any for me later. It really boggles my mind. We are not poor, and food is not scarce. So if anyone knows why an adult would eat food so others cannot have it, or hide it from others please let me know. I'm curious to find out the answer. 

Economics

This is going to be a change of pace for me. Instead of "Ranting and Raving" about things that bother me I'm going to blog something of more importance. My mother came in the door the other day and said we needed to cut back on our spending. Being curios I asked "Why?" I was not ready for her response. 

Everyone has joked or at least made some mention of the US economy that's on a nose dive. I have heard this from the news, which you have to know they inflate everything, and other people in my social class. My mom told me that her work said they are in a recession and cannot afford to pay people 40 hours. This is something that got my interest because now big businesses are saying it. When something becomes more then a whisper then chaos is sure to ensue, and no end will be in sight. 

My only hopes are the government will step in and actually help America return to glory instead of ringing her out for what she's worth. Our past generations gave their everything to make this country flourish. We are repaying them by take, take, take. 

That's all I'm going to say for now. I will not us my blog as a punching bag to beat up America. We need now more than ever to stand together because divided we WILL fall.

(The last part was said by our founding fathers to help unite all the colonies.)

Origami

Guys do the craziest things ever to impress or get noticed by females. Some of the more mild things are wearing a shirt to get noticed, say a catch phrase from a movie she mentioned, or even change who they are for a chance at meeting the special someone. I have something to confess, I learned origami for something along those lines. 

The difference is I didn't learn to impress someone. I tough myself because I held this person on such a high platform that I wanted to have the littlest thing in common with them. I knew I would never be as smart as them, read as many books, or even be as perfect as I see them. If folding a crane, not as well as them, is something I can share with them then I am perfectly happy telling people "Yes I learned that because I wanted to have something is common with them." 

Fashion

Here is a break from my normal blogging to bring you some breaking news. It's spreading like an infection within.

We all know that horizontal lines make you look fat and vertical lines are slimming. I could keep going but I'm going right for kill in this blog. When did it become OK to wear brown and back? Not only is this an unspoken rule but a spoken one as well! I think it all began when khaki colored shorts became mainstream and people started wearing black shirts with them. We might have grumbled at this, but didn't say anything. Now, today people are wearing brown dress shirts with black pants. Another one is jeans, a black shirt, and brown shoes.  Something has to happen! The fashion world is in chaos. I will not wear brown and black, but if you want to then I guess you have the final say in it. Just know SOME people are looking at you like you have no fashion sense. I will be one of them.

Jeep

I was heading to a class yesterday when my Jeep decided it didn't want to start back up. I stopped at the post office to make sure I was going the correct way, and when I tried to leave my Jeep died. So not only did I miss the class I was trying to get into, but I also missed my gym time. Instead of working out I had to settle for Family Guy and pancakes. I will have to admit the pancakes where very good. I think some of the best I have ever made.

My tow truck driver seemed like a normal guy until he started talking. I wish I were kidding but he bragged to me, for forty five minutes, about all the hot girls who wanted him. I just kept thinking to myself "Sure it's rare that a tow truck driver has all of his teeth, but you are 300 pounds who are you trying to fool?" To make things worse he told me that he was speeding up and slowing down on purpose to look at the girls. This was an outrage to me because sure this might be your job, but I do not want to be in the cab with you for more than I have to. So a forty five minute trip took over an hour. I can't even begin to describe how bad it smelled in the cab so here's a few descriptive words to try stale cigarettes, body odor, and bad breath.

Yes this is worth blogging about because it was a horrible event that took place so recent. Thank goodness I had my donkey calender to cheer me up.